Mind over Matter

So second swim meet was A LOT better!! My times were all cut, even though I was congested and my head felt like a baloon! I was only one second off the hundred backstroke record! The fifty free style was a better time, actually my best time, but I know I can do better. I think I performed better this meet because my mother gave me some very helpful information about relaxing. If any of you get super nervous before anything, hit me up! I have an excellent relaxation technique that I think really helps. But for anyone at anytime of the day, if you ever get a negative thought, like "I like fat today" or "My hair looks awful!" or "I wanna punch that guy in the face", immediately say "Cancel Thought." Your mind will actually just cancel the thought! You then have to replace it with a positive thought. It really does work, I tried this at my meet. It is a fantastic way to stay positive!

What do you want for Christmas?! Well, I want a Kindle! It is like an ipod for books, and after doing my research, I really do think I would enjoy it. I think I want the white one instead of the dark gray one. I really hope Santa gets it for me! Wink wink mom. :)

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Dissapointment

First swim meet was NOT where I wanted to be. With times only. My places I finished in were perfect, but my times were just slow. Granted I was a little sore from fruit and first meets are never great, I was still expecting more. But I also noticed I get WAY to nervous before I swim. Like its awful. Before my fifty free style (which is down and back in a pool) my heart was hurting. I can't really explain, but I just had a hard time breathing, and I felt like it was getting smaller and smaller and my blood wasn't pumping and I don't know. It was not very pleasant at all! I really need to find relaxing techniques. Like the best ones possible. Any suggestions, feel free to comment!

Thanksgiving is a lovely day, but my favorite part about Thanksgiving is the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade! My sister Tia was actually apart of this parade when she was in highschool. I would LOVE to do that. Especially next year. Who wouldn't want to go to New York, be on television, and walk in front of thousands and thousands of people. Not only people on the street, but people from all over the world watching! Oh how exciting that would be!!

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Festive Fanatics

My podcast is in Audrey's blog!

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Take 5

Sometimes, I need a break. I need to, for lack of better words, take five! Highschool can be a lot sometimes. And I am a very anxious person, as you all know! Whenever I hang out with my friends and family, I feel a lot better. And incase my Mother reads this, I LOVE YOU! :) This whole break thing came to me because one of my friends was having a hard time getting motivated to jump in a really cold pool at seven in the morning. Who could really blame her for not being motivated? She went on to say that she just wants a break. And lately, I have to agree. But today is Tuesday, which means tomorrow is Wednesday, and the next day is Thursday, then the next Friday! Which means, break!!! And then the next week is short and then you get an even longer break! I think we can do it fellow peers. We just need to think positive!

Last night, me and my mother took a late trip to Kohls to get a cute outfit for my NHS induction ceremony. We then went to Wal-mart, and my hair rejoiced with happiness this morning, for it had nice hair gel in it! It needed to be tamed. We finally were on our way home after we made a pit stop at McDonalds. The point of the paragraph is so: I HATE COLD FRIES!!!!!!!!

Tienes una dia bonita! :)

Live In the Moment!

So, my loving mother went off on one of her life speeches. Unfortunatley, my adolescent stubborn self was ignoring her. My monthly gift was also a contributing factor. I wasn't ignoring fully though, because I was listening, but I didn't really want to hear it. She was telling me I need to stop worrying about everything. I just need to take life as it comes and live in the moment. Thats not always an easy thing to do for me though. I wish it was, but I do worry about my future. I think a little worrying is okay, but my obsessive worrying is not. I just need to take things as they come. But not just me. Alot of my fellow bloggers need this same speech. Each day is a gift! And not one day is guarenteed. So don't take them for granted, and make the most of it.

That was very philosophical! I think I am on a life rant because a very dear friend of mine just found out she had cancer. It really, really bothers me. She has to go through chemo, and it is just awful. I know there isn't a situation where its not awful , and that many people have gone through this before. But when you hear those stories of people you don't know, your sympathetic and feel awful. But for me, when it is someone I know, my heart just breaks thinking about it. Life is sooo not fair. Why must bad things happen to good people? I think that good people are strong enough to handle it. But in the case with my neice, my sister did everything right throughout her pregnancy, and she had complications and was in the nicu. But there can be idiotic mothers who smoke and drink the whole time they are pregnant and their baby will be just fine. Sometimes I just don't understand, but life isn't suppose to be understanding all of the time. Isn't it just a lovely little mess we get wrapped up into. Kind of like love.

Awfully Anxious

I really do wish I could just BREATHE every once in a while. I get so worked up about so many things. It really does get annoying. I just can't help it sometimes. If something bothers me, I just shrug it off. Well then the next thing bothers me, and I just shrug it off. Well then I have about a million things I just shrugged off and then it all boils up inside of me and then WAM. I just explode! I feel awful because I don't mean too, but soemtimes I just snap. Swimming helps let go of some of that frustration, but sometimes I just want to scream. I have my escapes, but sometimes I really just want to run away and leave everything for a day. I really miss my sister. She could always make me smile and laugh no matter how crappy I felt. And now shes gone to college and I rarely see her. When I get anxious I like to read my other sisters book, which is called A Thousand and One Things to be Thankful For. It is a lovely book. The most random things are in that book, but when you think about it your like, "Hey, that really does make me happy. I need to appreciate it more!" Thanksgiving will help me appreciate those little things a lot more.

I also get irked when people call me an over achiever. I like to try hard at everything I do. I can't help it, thats me. I could be considered a perfectionist! But I also know I don't want to waste my time doing something if I am not doing it my best ability. Like with swimming! I go swim in the morning and then have an actuall practice after school. When someone found this out, they said I was an over achiever. And you know what? Maybe I am. But I also know if I work hard, I have a shot at winning conference and going to state! I want to break records and swim fast. Who wouldn't want to do that? Unless you can't swim, or you know, you hate it. I could stop being an over achiever, and quit trying. But what will that get me?

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Persuasive Techniques...!!

I think I will use # 5 & 6 the most. I like to give both sides of the story. If you just give everyone your ways of thinking, when they hear something else they will probably wonder about that. If you state the other views poinst, but then what is wrong with those points, I think it would be better. That way, you seem even more knowledgable and that you aren't afraid of what the other view may say.

The Armored Review

Is anyone else excited about the school newspaper?!?! I am!! I am writing my articles as we speak, and I really enjoy doing it. It is a very festive issure covering the start of school till the end of October. My articles cover homecoming and the school theme! I can't give it away, so you will have to get it and read it!!!!

One thing I can't stand lately is stupid, immature boys! Thankfully, my boyfriend is not included in this group of boys. I am talking about when a boy is like, "Hey I love you!", and then the girl is like "Oh my gosh, he loves me! " and then, like off of Mama Mia: dot, dot, dot! I really like this lyric from a song. It goes as so: " Why are some girls so naive? He didn't unbutton your blouse to see a better view of your heart." So true Meg and Dia, so true! I think alot of girls get themselves in these situations. I feel bad, becasue they normally get their heart broken, but I also just want them to use their heads and be smart!! I know its easy to get wrapped up in a boy, but for goodness sake, think with your head, not your heart. I probably sound like a hypocrite because I think I am heading towards the path of love, but I also know not too get way in over my head. 

I am excited for my persuasive speech. I am ready to write it and recite it. Woo hoo! Buena Suerta on these speeches! :)

I won't say I'm in love!

What does the word even mean!! Not many people know, and not many people can explain, but it is something every person wants. I don't think age matters, but I do think the more mature you are, the more mature your emotions are. Which can be very important!

I do enjoy this wonderful weather, but I sometimes think it is a little cold. I am naturally cold natured, so I'm kind of a baby when it comes to the weather! Which reminds me, I am kind of a baby about a lot of things! Morgan and I have a contest to see who you can say "ow" the most in a day. I say ow for the stupidest reasons sometimes! But so far today, he has said it two more times than me!!! :)

I am pretty excited for tonight! Everyone have a lovely night, day, etc, etc! :)

Safe Haven

Isn't that just a lovely word? The sound of it just makes me all warm inside. This is the title of Nicholas Spark's new book that I get to read thanks to an amazing teacher!!! I have already started and it is very intriguing. The main character is a girl and there is something that is just bothering her! But of course you won't find out until the very end and then the whole book will just come together, like when you understand a math problem. I am super duper excited about this book!!!!

This book does make me think about my Safe Haven. A safe place where I can go and just be me. I moved around alot as a child and the house I am in now has been the longest house I have lived in. I get scared were going to move because my family can't possibly live in a house this long! But I think my family is where my heart is. No matter what we have been through, moving or packing or even playing, we stick together. I am very blessed with a wonderful family like mine, even if we don't have a lot of the "nicer" things! I think my little car will do just fine, however one of my tires may be flat....AGAIN! It hates me.

I got to swim this morning!!! I love, love, love swimming! I can't even begin to describe how it feels when I am in the water and all of my awful anxiety is just washed away. It is a very magical feeling and thats really the only place I feel like that. I need to get in the mornings more, but with meetings all the time, I find it hard. Maybe the pool is my safe haven. It is starting to seem like that.

Have a lovely day!!!!

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A lot of things can really just make my skin crawl. One would be when this "wonderful" techonology screws up, and another can be when people purposely try to hurt someone or make them feel bad about themselves. I can't stand it!!!!! I think all people are different and that is what makes the world go round! I think there is only one person who can judge. Besides an actuall judge. And I also think if you can't say something nice, THEN DON'T SAY IT ALL!  I think everyone has forgotten the golden rule. I am going to have to fix this.

I am really excited about my school spirit theme for the school. Obviously! It is surronded by the theme of "Bring it Back". We need to bring a lot of things back for school: Pride, tradition, excitement, and most importantly, SPIRIT. There is a song that has the words, "bring it back", in it a lot. So we could play this song for any occasion. Another beautiful thing about this idea is that it would unite the school. Anyone can bring back the PC spirit! Not just the football team, or the yearbook club, or the band. Everyone in this whole school can be apart of this theme and it applies to everyone! Because, no matter what you do in high school, whatever happens at Pike Central will reflect you no matter what! If you go somewhere and they are like, "Hey, where are you from?". And you are like, "Hey, I am from Pike Central.". Then, the one thing they know about Pike Central they will bring up. It doesn't matter if you never even heard of it or ever played that sport, etc. I think if we bring back this spirit and start believing in ourselves and all of are school functions, our school will succeed! No matter what a score board says.

Call me crazy one more time

I am not very chill today. This week has been hectic!!! Tonight, I have about five billion things to do. On the plus side, my book has me "hooked" as in I can't put it down if my life depended on it. And the club de espanol float for the homecoming parade is looking muy bien! I really like Spanish, so I will probably go from one to the other. I really will post a whole blog in Spanish. One of these days...

I have always wanted to be a teacher, but sense I want about five children, I need a job that can support them well! I know what its like to not have things that you want or need, so I don't want my future babies to go through that! Therefore, I turned my attentions to psychology! I love love love psychology. In fact all the of the neurons in brain are sending signals through my body to my fingers to type this blog. It is truely flabbergasting! But recently, other career options have came into my mind, like being a chemist! Trust me, making ammonium nitrate is not as easy as it sounds. For educational purposes only, of course! I wish I didn't have to worry about all of this career stuff now, but due to my anxious little mind, it is all I am pondering!!

I think on Sunday I will watch Pirates of the Carribean. It is a holiday, and I LOVE holidays! In fact, you can see my Christmas countdown. I think we are down to 100 days! Woo hoo! I can already hear it...
"Here comes Santa Clause, her comes Santa Clause..."
I need to make Christmas CD's, stat!!

TGIF :)

What a busy week for me!! But I like busy, busy is good. I am almost half-way through the Time Traveler's Wife, which is a lot better than the movie! After this book, I have four more I need to read. I am very behind! All of the clubs i'm in are doing good. I am also very excited for the game tonight, because I have a friend from the opposing team who has the same name as mine, but it is spelled a little different! It is very odd that we are friends, because we started out as enemies over, I bet you can guess it, a stupid boy!! I really hope my speech goes well, and everyone else's speech goes well too!! Buena Suerta!!! :)