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Thursday, October 28, 2010
Awfully Anxious
I really do wish I could just BREATHE every once in a while. I get so worked up about so many things. It really does get annoying. I just can't help it sometimes. If something bothers me, I just shrug it off. Well then the next thing bothers me, and I just shrug it off. Well then I have about a million things I just shrugged off and then it all boils up inside of me and then WAM. I just explode! I feel awful because I don't mean too, but soemtimes I just snap. Swimming helps let go of some of that frustration, but sometimes I just want to scream. I have my escapes, but sometimes I really just want to run away and leave everything for a day. I really miss my sister. She could always make me smile and laugh no matter how crappy I felt. And now shes gone to college and I rarely see her. When I get anxious I like to read my other sisters book, which is called A Thousand and One Things to be Thankful For. It is a lovely book. The most random things are in that book, but when you think about it your like, "Hey, that really does make me happy. I need to appreciate it more!" Thanksgiving will help me appreciate those little things a lot more.
I also get irked when people call me an over achiever. I like to try hard at everything I do. I can't help it, thats me. I could be considered a perfectionist! But I also know I don't want to waste my time doing something if I am not doing it my best ability. Like with swimming! I go swim in the morning and then have an actuall practice after school. When someone found this out, they said I was an over achiever. And you know what? Maybe I am. But I also know if I work hard, I have a shot at winning conference and going to state! I want to break records and swim fast. Who wouldn't want to do that? Unless you can't swim, or you know, you hate it. I could stop being an over achiever, and quit trying. But what will that get me?
I got my image from http://www.laurareimer.com/growchangedie/wp-content/uploads/2009/03/swim1.jpg
I got my image from http://www.laurareimer.com/growchangedie/wp-content/uploads/2009/03/swim1.jpg
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I thought you had been looking a bit stressed lately. Can you call your sister and talk to her?
ReplyDeleteI have a very strong feeling that those who call you an overachiever are either paying you a compliment or are jealous. If you think about it, both of those are good. You just continue doing things the way you want to do them. You are going to be a great success in whatever you set your mind to do. Even in the short time I've known you, you impress me as being mature, kind, smart, and caring. That's a great combination.
I hope writing in your blog helps relieve some of that tension. Writing in a journal is also good and a bit more private. If you need a journal, I've got one that you can have. Remind me.